Can’t let go of what you never had... the only thing you have to hold on to in this life is yourself. Love yourself and you will always have love.
In Buddhism... to love isn’t about owning someone or making them yours. Love is accepting that someone will choose to walk alongside you because they share goals and they accept you as you are, flaws included.
Making your life and living space beautiful is an extension of that love. You can have an exquisite dreamhouse but if you don’t love living in it, why would anyone else? Think of yourself, your vessel as a Dreamhouse and pour all the amazing love, energy, devotion and attention into taking care of it and building it up. When you find you love it, you’ll realize that you won’t allow others to harm it, including yourself. And you’ll want to share it with someone who values & cares for it as much as you do.
Kisses, m.