Today's horoscope tells me not to expect enormous change all at once today. But it reminded me to reflect on how much change I've already made in the last 3-4 years. It's been a lot.
Someone once told me: burn your memories, destroy the writing, walk away from your job and you will feel better (the job used to be my dream job: I co-managed a music store for nearly 10yrs and it went sour). I did burn my journal, got fired and stop talking to a couple people, but I didn't destroy writing or photos, I just let the process evolve...
Change is necessary. You change what you're doing not who you are. After all life is what you make it and change happens whether you choose to take control of what happens to you or let it happen.
Here's one of two entries I wrote 4 years ago while nursing a cold in bed.
Can you remember what were you doing a 3 or 4 years ago? Do you read your horoscope?
Enjoy!
Kisses, m.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
What you make it
I know you had to go
It's too late to turn back
And I know you're so far away
It's too bad all the things that you might say
I saw the way, I saw the way you move
You never stop to notice what you have
You saw the way, you saw the way I looked at you today
When everyone is sweet, now
Oh, yeah nothing's gonna change but everyone is sweet, yeah
You wanna walk away but life is what you make it
You have to go away but maybe you'll just wait, yeah
It's time to turn around 'cause everyone is sweet
And I know you had to go
It's too late, it's over
And I know you're so far away
It's too bad all the things that you might say
I saw the way, I saw the way you move
You never stop to notice what you have
You saw the way, you saw the way I looked at you today
When everyone is sweet, now
Oh, yeah nothing's gonna change but everyone is sweet, yeah
You wanna walk away but life is what you make it
You have to go away but maybe you'll just wait, yeah
It's time to turn around 'cause everyone is sweet
This life is never changing but this life is rearranging
And this life it always goes on, and on, and on, and on
I saw the way, I saw the way you move
You never stop to notice what you have
Oh, yeah nothing's gonna change but everyone is sweet, yeah
You wanna walk away but life is what you make it
You have to go away but maybe you'll just wait, yeah
It's time to turn around 'cause everyone is sweet
This life is never gonna change, this life is never over
Life is What You Make It - Number One Gun
What you make it
Life is what you make it. Good advice and an amazing song by Number One Gun. Been thinking of a good friend the last few days and wanting to dedicate that song to him. It seemed appropriate to return the gesture since he introduced me to this band last March. The long winding journey is a metaphor for life. Twists and turns. The sometimes bumpy avenues that take us to our destination. Aisles. Corridors. Halls. For the moment, Halls as in Cough Drops. Interesting turn. Entertaining this uninvited guest for a week now. No matter though. Quite at ease and making more than the best about it.
Thankfully, was able to spend part of the last week observing through interaction. Listening to all sorts of people; Family, Friends, and Strangers alike. Watching movies, TV, and news. Hearing the radio, songs, and the store musak. Oddly enough they all kept coming back to one thing: Happiness. It was on the tip of everyone’s tongue and floating in the air. With that thought are people happier? It’s a wonder, since this idea is out there inquisitively infiltrating the different cultures of the world in so many ways. For the moment, it seems people are getting better about it. At least humanity, as a whole, is certainly preoccupied by it. Wanting more and more of it.
Are you happy? Aside from all the other nonsense that exists in this crazy world. Forget what’s on the tube, on the web or in the papers, and forget what they tell you to believe. Put it ALL out of your head. Even when all that comes and goes, the happiness is what you have left. What’s the measure of a person’s happiness? It’s what you make of it. Gratitude. Appreciation for what’s right in front of you. Wherever you go or whatever you do it’s always comes back to you. Suppose what I’m getting to is… if someone asks you ‘Are you happy?’ Be honest. Tell them. If the answer is NO, don’t feel too bad. Just take a deep breath and look for it. It’s there. Perhaps not every hour of every day, but even on a bad day realize that there’s something to appreciate and smile about. Every day try to imagine there is a little more happiness in the world.